im really starting to wonder whether i am crazy. if im not crazy there is something truely wrong with me. i have an addiction. i know it kind of sounds like "hi im emma and im an alcoholic" but its not that. i think im addicted to other peoples company. or certain peoples company. like if it was up to me id spend my time with friends and dave. like id never let them out of my site type of thing. id love to live in a house with a group of my friends, just so i knew id see them every day or so. see im crazy!!!
i know theres certain people that would love to tell me that i am. that they would LOVE to point out the fact that im demented in the head... i think id believe them if they told me too.
im confused, im meant to be happy. im at uni, i have an awesome boyfriend, im not sick and theres nothing that bad in my life. but there is like this black gloom hanging over me. whenever i get a free moment lately all i can do is almost cry thinking of everything. and the one thing that goes through my head is "youre crazy em!" and the more i think it the more i actually believe it.
im really considering going to get something to eat or drink... but it means ill need to get money out for parking :( ah well ill figure that out later i guess.
anyway im going to go dont know how im going to spend the next 55mins before history tut .... probably trying to keep my mind of the fact that i could just go home....
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