last night i realised ive been turning into the type of person i dont want to be, ive been saying some pretty hurtful stuff, and even though some might not think i am i can be a very very hurtful person.
yesterday in sociology tutorial we talked about depression, for like half the class. about the causes and effects of it. the things they were saying really got to me and i couldnt take much more so i got picked up early. but from there i couldnt pick myself up. there was this feeling, a feeling that wouldnt go away. and when i got home and mum started to talk to me i snapped. i know that she probably didnt deserve what i did but i cant seem to say sorry. ive tried a few times but i dont know what is stopping me. maybe if i say sorry im giving in? can anyone help me with this??
i am so grateful for my friends and dave sometimes, i know that they would be there if i needed them, and same with my family. but what i want to know... is how can i get better? ive been "depressed" for so long, and i dont want it to continue, but i dont wanna walk around like a zombie.
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