the beginning

I decided that instead of writing to just one person all the time that maybe I should start a blog. Write about the random crap that comes into my head on a public place and then anyone who is actually interested in hearing what I have to say can have a look.
First of all what I want to know is why the university cannot figure out what to do about the stupid parking? They have come up with this brilliant plan called “car-pooling” but when I was searching for a car park yesterday, in a rampage I guess you could call it, there were more than 50 car parks empty because of the car-pooling. So, why don't they open up those car parks for those who need it throughout the day? If say by 10am the car park isn’t full, let someone else take that place. Whatever they do, they don't need to lessen the car parks that are already there, they need to make more. They need to take away some of the teachers car parks that aren’t being used and make those into paid car parks.
Another thing I want to know is why they can’t make an easier way of sitting through lectures. In my last lecture no matter how I tried I was almost falling asleep. Yes, that may not be because of the class it may be because I NEED sleep, but still. They need to make the rooms a little more inviting, the lighting in the rooms seem to WANT to make the people fall asleep.
All I know is that I am over being sick. It hasn't even been a week, and I can’t stand being awake and feeling like this. My brain can hardly work, and when it does its on random crap. My body is aching and I just feel so down. The things that people find easy in everyday life to me at the moment take a huge effort. But that just may be me complaining. What is so wrong with complaining though? Why is it seen as a taboo? Like, if you hear someone complaining your immediate reaction would be “sigh, get over it!” but why is that? Why is it that in our society, being upset about something is wrong? Yes, everyone should be happy, but if everyone walked around smiling and laughing the world would probably fall apart. Thus, why is it so bad for a person to complain about things in their lives that causes distress or hardship? I’m complaining about being sick at the moment because I can’t believe it, and I just want to go away. Plus there have been a few people I know that have given me advice on how to get better due to my complaining. So thus using a negative in a positive way 
Destiny- a word that people frown upon because they see it as airy-fairy. But lately this word seems to be part of my everyday vocabulary, mainly because I want to know who is deciding on mine. I have had some people lately thinking that they can control it, e.g. parents, boyfriend’s parents. I just want to know if anyone can tell me how exactly I am meant to do what I wish, and what I want out of my life but at the same time not hurt those who think they can decide what my destiny will be. Maybe another way to say it is that they have this idea of me. This “innocence” because I am their daughter or my boyfriend’s parents because he is their son, but this idea of me may not be who I am. The expectation put by others distinguishes their judgments of their behavior and the views of that person when they go against it. Example being that if I went to do a certain thing, such as go out partying but my parents don't agree but I go ahead anyway. This would cause their view of me to change, they would be upset. My main problem with this situation is that maybe that is what I want to do, that is my desire. To achieve my desires I must hurt my parents.
Man can I babble on about crap  so now I have half a hour before my next class, but really all Im wanting is to be at home in bed. These early mornings and late nights are getting to me. Ive undertaken an experiment of not having caffeine (like coffee or v) for 5 days, and I have realised… stuff the side effects I need the caffeine to live this kind of life!